I am grateful to know that one holy night, the Prince of Peace was born–and that makes healing possible.
The journey to mental wellness does take practice. It takes knowing what to do with the fearful and vengeful wolf so it does not grow inside of us. It takes receiving the kind, gentle, loving wolf and helping that to grow through identity, direction, and connection.
For years I have been changing my thinking patterns, hoping it would somehow make a difference. I can now honestly report that it has made a SIGNIFICANT difference in my life! Not only is depression still eradicated due to the physical and mindset roots that I have changed, but I can now create in ways that I had no idea were available to me at the beginning of this journey!
Watch this 2-minute video on the scientific explanation behind this:
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It is May 30, 2018 and my husband and I just sent the final check for the completion of our backyard creation! I have learned a ton about being a creator in the past several years. When I began the journey to figure out the depression I was deeply rooted in, I had no idea creation had anything to do with it.
Unknowingly, I was creating a perfect storm of patterns of belief from my life’s experiences and physical health challenges that I had no idea were going on. That perfect storm was raining down fear and withdrawal and emptiness as dark clouds of hopelessness encompassed me on a regular basis.
I will forever be grateful for the small desire to create a different reality that began to grow within me around year 10. I decided to harness the storm and reclaim my power which has led me to a life of freedom from depression and anxiety; I have created a life of abundance; I have learned to turn lemons into lemonade; and my mess has become my message!
All of this came to a culminating point in my experience this morning as we closed the chapter on our home and yard creation of 4 years. The final chapter in this creation began last fall…
I really wanted to have the final yard details completed this spring. I figured it would take a few thousand dollars to make it happen. I checked in with my Higher Power to see about the timing. I got the okay and so I put it on my vision board. I included words about my gratitude for the people and resources that would show up to help us finish the project. I also wrote “Awh! Hill completed! Garden Pathways done! Beauty! Estatic!” on the pictures of the completed yard. I put all of this in my 2018 story as well. I listened to it, I looked at it, I pondered it, and I paid attention to the next steps I should take.
In February the idea came that I should begin contacting landscapers and get on the schedule. And so I began to make calls. One company told me flat out that it couldn’t be done with the budget I was proposing. But another company stuck with me. They suggested having their architect design a plan and then go from there. We agreed. When the plan came back, my husband and I were stunned! It was absolutely incredible! It was everything and more than I ever imagined!!
The next step was a giant leap of faith as we met with the contractor to get a bid. It was WAY over budget!! We could have stopped there. We could have said, “This doesn’t match up with our plan. Thanks anyway.” I’m pretty persistent though and so we began to whittle the plan down and make adjustments so we could move forward with it.
We reached a compromise after much negotiation…between us and the contractor and me and my husband. We still had to do some real “searching” to make sure we were willing to spend extra money that could have gone towards something else. I’ll never forget the day we needed to make the final decision. My husband and I seemed to be at an impasse…we took a break from it for awhile. And then I had the unmistakable knowledge that it was ok to move forward. Thankfully my husband trusted me with this and we gave the ok to the landscapers.
It took 3 weeks for the landscapers to work a miracle in our back yard. It was incredible to watch our back hill transform into a creation that surpassed my dreams! My husband and I literally thanked God every day for miracles of transformation and creation.
What does any of this have to do with depression and reclaiming your power? Everything!! I know beyond a doubt that had I not been persistent in uncovering the physical and emotional roots to the depression I battled, I would not have been in a state to create a beautiful home and yard with my husband. It would not have happened. My life would be so very, very different in every single area had I not decided to reclaim my power and figure the puzzle out.
The choice is yours. Beautifully yours. Reclaim your power. Contact me to support you in this process! Choose to reclaim your power and create a life without anxiety or depression:)
Chaos. It’s something that marks living on this planet. It’s all around us. The question is whether or not we allow it to have the power or if we will exercise power over it.
This morning I am feeling chaos–overwhelm at the dozens of thoughts circling in my mind. I can either wallow in this chaotic feeling or do something about it.
I’m choosing to move to order. I choose to make a list of everything that is in my head. That way I don’t have to remember it. The list remembers it.
Next I will watch and listen as the ability to accomplish everything on my list comes about, step by step. And I will marvel that, once again, creation has occurred in my life!
Try it. Find one thing today that is chaotic to you. Maybe it’s swirling thoughts that need to be written down. Maybe it’s a pile of laundry that needs to be put away. Maybe it’s a conversation with someone that needs to happen. Maybe it’s a kitchen drawer that needs to be organized. Maybe it’s your car that could be cleaned out.
Choose one thing. Move from chaos to order to creation!
It works! It matters! You matter!
There were times in my journey through depression that I felt resentment–towards God, towards mental illness, towards anyone that thought I could do something about it.
And then something shifted and I decided to drop the “victim” mentality and do something to move forward. I remember one day in particular when I was at the store. I was not in a happy place. I felt dark. I felt alone. I was mad. I remember how the cashier was friendly but I didn’t return it. Instead I briefly interacted and went on my way. It was months later when I began to pull out of the resentment that I realized something had shifted–I was different, I was showing up differently, and my interactions with store clerks were a lot more positive. That’s when I knew I was making progress!
My husband and I watched a powerful movie a couple of days ago. Breathe is the true story of the Cavendish couple from Britain who change the tide of how disabled and paralyzed people are treated and cared for. From his obituary: “He had a natural graciousness: his lack of evident resentment at his own condition made helping him a positive pleasure.”
Resentment. It’s real. And it stops the ability to allow others in. What resentment do you need to let go of today?
(first published March 2018)